stepstomarrow
When granddaughter, Jada, was born with leukemia, a donor-match was located and Jada made a miraculous recovery. In honor of her grandaughter's health, Jeanna has decided to walk across the country (in the dead of winter) to raise awareness and build support for the bone marrow registry (all that's required is a cheek swab). Follow Jeanna's remarkable journey as she travels the United States by foot.

If you are married - perhaps have some kids.. Appreciate that you're not alone. If you have family but hardly ever see them, make sure to see them as much as you can before they die. It is really scary to be all alone, in the universe - especially around Christmas time. Hold on to that wife and love your kids. Because if you don't have your own family after your parents die and all the fairy tales have given way to reality - you will be in this huge universe all alone - without anybody across a trillion light years, who knows you or care - who validates that you even live. You will feel an emptiness that is so horrific, your throat will choke up - you'll struggle to breath - you'll be nobody at a place worse than hell.

Hello you,

I want you to stop. I'm fucking tired. No matter how much you think I'm suffering, I'm not. YOU are the one that's irritating me. YOU are the one who's making it worse. I don't want to talk to you anymore than necessary. I don't want to see you anymore than necessary. You think that knowing stuff about me, bringing up things you know about me in conversations will endear you to me? Think again, because it's fucking irritating and annoying. I don't care for you. I may have once, but not anymore. Leave me the hell alone because I don't want to care about you anymore.

What hurts? That you keep trying to push yourself to me and telling me you're waiting for the time when we can be "us" again. What's even worse? That I won't do anything other than ignore you and treat you like an invisible person because I don't know how to respond and I'm afraid of what you will do when you realize I truly want nothing to do with you anymore.

So shut up and leave me alone. Please.

Not forever your anymore,
me

it all makes perfect sense now. i was never anything like you in the first place...

taste_buds
Holidays provide a built-in excuse for indulgent entertaining. This all-purpose foodie community covers everything from homemade hangover cures to dinner party menus. Need quick advice? Get five-minute snack suggestions, low-fat ingredient substitutes, and even measurement conversions. Delicious recipes garnished with humorous advice. Yum.

naturesbeauty
Always on the lookout for compelling images, we were delighted to discover this flourishing community of artists who share a love of nature. Honoring the subject with photographs, paintings, sketches, prose, poetry, and other creative works, you'll be simultaneously riveted to your monitor and inspired to run helter skelter towards the nearest wooded dale.

who i am to them is not the same person i am to me
they see me differently

i'm not the person they think i am.

I don't know who to rant to or where to go to blow off some steam, so here goes:

WHY are there things that happen that have absolutely NO meaning whatsoever? I am one who believes that everything happens for a reason, but it is just SO frustrating when things happen at random and I have NO IDEA why it's happening at that moment.

I am so mad at myself for not following through on the advice that I give to other people. "Carpe Diem!" I tell my friends, when they're faced with situations where they're not sure whether to go for it or not. I can't even follow my own advice.

I'm just so pissed off of how I handled getting to know someone. I had this small crush on a guy in one of my classes at Uni and I never did anything about it. Fear stopped me; it usually does. And it's just so stupid that I actually allow fear to prevent me from doing what I want to do. So now it's the end of the semester and I randomly decided to add him via Facebook, which is stupid because I prefer meeting and getting to know people face-to-face. We actually had a conversation last night, but it was mostly small talk. He didn't seem at all interested in getting to know me. And then I saw him today, which threw me for a loop. He was in an office though, but we were in each others' line of vision. He kept looking straight at me though. He did leave the office at one point and passed by me, but again, because I was scared, I didn't say anything, didn't even make eye contact...but he didn't say hello or anything either. My whole reason for contacting him doesn't even make sense to me anymore.

I really hate how I feel as if I've lost my innocence (and I don't mean my virginity in this case). I don't regret the things that have happened to me but, I just dislike how I've had to grow up and see the world for how it really is and see how people really are. I just can't seem to see the good in people; I see the bad more often, I don't know why. Sometimes, I just don't even want to see the good in people...I don't like what I know now either, compared to what I knew when I was younger. I have all these questions, life questions even, that I know that no one can answer and I just don't like it. I really, really hate that there's this idea of perfection yet there's nobody who can reach it.

The truth f**king hurts. I really should watch what and how I say things to others....

Semi-good news - my depression is weakening and isn't so apparent but it still tries to come back by creating a sense of insecurity within me and there's that little devil's voice in my head saying things like~
-- you can't and won't get all your work done; it's impossible and you'll fail once again
-- you're unattractive, too picky, too shallow and too much of a keep-to-yourself type of person; it's no wonder that you're still single and that's probably why your crush isn't interested
-- you're NEVER gonna be good enough for anyone, so just quit trying already!
-- people who pass you by and glance at you are probably thinking negative things like, "oh wow, she's so ugly.."


UGH.

backpacking
Want to embrace your wanderlust on the cheap? If you're tall on adventurous spirit, but short on funds, this community can help you plan a trip to anywhere. Offering plentiful tips on how to travel light, you can post about bargain hotels and hostels if you're into urban exploration or discuss camping gear and mosquito netting for the great outdoors. Hitch your backpack, pitch your tent, and carpe diem!

**FINAL EDIT Thu Dec 10 02:15:47 UTC 2009**

So there is the final update... Over the past day we have processed around 11 million jobs out of the 12 million that were in queue at that time. Please bear in mind that over this past day, more jobs for notifications are also created. So while the queue has been dropping, we are still not fully caught up at this point, due to backlog and new jobs. We have roughly 3 million jobs still pending that involve the notification system in some manner. We had hoped we could have fully cleared the queue in a day, but unfortunately we can't clear it too quickly, since we need the rest of the site to operate normally. From our current perspective on the amount of jobs that are left in queue, and how many it has processed thus far, we believe it will take around another 8 - 12 hours to process everything.

And finally some answers to some questions:

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freeskiers
While some of us long to escape the cold, dark stretch of winter for hot tropical beaches, for others, there's nothing quite like whoooooshing down those shimmering sugar alps. If you're fond of freestyle skiing, get ready to slide down the slippery slopes in good company. This passionate, international community shares travel/gear tips, anecdotes, photos, and videos for those who can't get enough of the sweet stuff.

seasonal_icons
Need some extra twinkle to decorate your place? Check out these dazzling holiday-themed icons. If you're an artist, you can post your own creations, provided you abide by the simple rules (which is to say, all cheer and no politicking). Be sure to comment and give credit if you wish to borrow a little spirit (no direct links, please). If you're feeling a touch of humbug this season, this is an instant shot of festivity.

handmade_gifts
High on creativity, but low on cash? You'll find tons of brilliant suggestions for do-it-yourself crafts sure to please everyone on your holiday gift list. Offering detailed instructions, photos, budgets, timelines, and active support, you'll soon turn spare remnants of fabric and time into cherished keepsakes. Be sure to search entries and read user guidelines before you post for help!

i truly hate myself.

i can put on a good show, but i truly hate myself.

I have an irrational fear of dying in my sleep....
I'm 23 years old.